it's just miles and miles and miles and miles . . .
05 January 2005 2:35 am
Well, the relaxing break at my parents I was looking forward to never really happened. It's been a little howyousay? tense since I got home. The shit hit the fan today when a big screaming match erupted between my parents and I. Fuck. At least I have Lee and Laura to talk to - they've both been great. Since I've been home I've had to go to the dentist, the walk-in clinic, the emergency room, and the ear specialist. I feel like I am falling apart both physically and mentallly. That said, it's a new year and hopefully things can only get better from here on in. I'm going to Boston to get an apartment in two weeks and am starting to get excited about it. Until now I've been paralysed by confusion, exhaustion, a case of the blues, and worry. I haven't really done anything since I've been home. That's got to end though and tomorrow I start doing my pre-Boston prepatory work. One of my best friends from college, the one whose wedding I was in last year, called me last night. Her brother died last week while he was visiting her. She found his body on the morning of New Year's Eve. I've never heard anyone so upset and it was completely heartbreaking. I felt helpless and unbearably sad for her. I just didn't know what to say. Things will get better, I know they will but for now they reamain a bit tough. I just can't wait until this run of crappiness is finished. Even though I consider myself a pretty strong person enough is enough, you know? Sigh. I have purchased some nice DVDs and CDs lately. Distraction helps. Two more weeks. Surely, I can manage that. Right?
